Future Rant

Did you ever have one of those moments where you reflect on your life or parts of it and you become dissatisfied and you feel like you need to change something? Well I've been having that moment everyday now for the past month. Nothing is more unsettling then uncertainty. For the longest time I wanted to be a graphic designer then one instant and one suggestion from a professor and all of sudden I'm on a completely different path that's totally unfamiliar to me. Up until that point I had everything figured out, I was gonna finish up at community college then transfer to Drexel and they would give me a job my last year there...but noooo I had to go and listen to the first person who told me what I wanted to hear "Your a good writer" and now I'm majoring in Radio/TV/Film with a minor is journalism--what the fuck? I don't even know what I want to be anymore, I have plenty of ambitions and dreams but no real realistic goal. So who knows how long i'll be in school for and who knows where I'll be, probably in the same place still wondering what I'm doing. Pretty soon everyone around me is going to have their shit figured out and I'm going to be the last one and I have no one to blame but myself. I like to think of myself as an overall person, I get a long with all kinds of people and I'm pretty decent at a lot of things but I don't really excel to much at anything in particular except maybe video games and reading and understanding people. I'm a decent graphic artist, I'm a decent writer, and I'm a decent everything else--I just want to be sure of one thing so I can run with it and be happy--not that I'm not happy. Well this was more of a rant than a blog.

The Interweb Generation

It feels like only yesterday when I was on my Gateway family computer with windows 95 logging onto American Online for the first time. Back then not that many people had a computer with a 56k modem hooked up to a phone line that they could use to surf the vast desolate information super highway. Back then you were lucky to get a cell phone by the time you could buy cigarettes. Now every mother fucker and their fucking moms has a high-speed internet connection and a cell phone, everything is point and click instant gratification, instant messaging, instant meals, instant instantness. Slowly the world is becoming this super fast impersonal cold ball of super conducting metals and fiber-optic wiring. People used to have to talk face to face with people or sometimes over the phone but now all that's gone; all you have to do is text, IM, or message someone what you want to say. While this is an amazing advancement in technology it's a severe decline in human interaction, it's a couple steps back actually. Because of texting and IM'ing and social websites like Myspace and Facebook kids now a days don't get as much human interaction and learn about body language. Children are getting cellphones at a younger and younge and while there are many arguments that say it's a good idea (some of which I would most certainly agree with) it still thwarts the child's body language lessons and regular language lessons for that matter. For god sake my mom even texts me now and uses abbreviation for words that are only four letters long! Instead of going out and playing jailbreak or tag or manhunt or kick-the-can, kids are trying to get more friends on myspace or sitting inside and just texting each other. When and If I have kids, I'm sure it'll be a way different time then it is now, I'm gonna kick their asses outside and limit their consumption of technology. You wonder why your kids are bratty fat ass social retards it's because you let them sit on their computers and cell phones all day eating chips and drinking soda. Slllloooowwwwww dddddoooowwwnnnnn--call someone instead of texting them, hang out with someone instead of IM'ing them, or go out and meet people in a normal social setting then just leaving comments and adding new people on myspace. Sure I spend a decent amount of time on my computer too, and I text a lot too, but I didn't start till I was way past my adolescents and have had plenty of social experience. Get some exercise and making friends in real life, your only hurting yourself.

I'm about to start sending letters to friends in the mail, bring that fad back.

-Toph